Tuesday, October 28, 2008
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Dearest Bear Baby,Happy Birthday to you and I hope your wishes will come true.
You will always be my baby (Not the cheesy manner) and I always remember the baby side of you crying, smiling, laughing and playing with py py.
Love you lots,
Bear Big or Big Bear
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YiHui BLaEh BLaEH...
at |10:17 PM|
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Tomorrow will be my day. By right, I should be in Macau now doing my overseas conference. But due to the last minute cancellation, I am here in Singapore. Is it a blessing? Hmm..I guess it is hard to say for now.
I remember there was a year when I thought my mum had fogotten about my day. I went out the whole day and when I came back past midnight, there it was..sitting quitely in the fridge. A small but untouched cake. I teared. I felt ashamed of myself. How can I actually think that my mum, the one who spent hours in labour, in pain could even forget my day. If there was anyone who will always remember my special day, it will be my mum. Sadly, the time I saw the cake, it was past midnight and it was no longer my day. And sadly, my mum had slept and I dint even had the chance to mutter a little 'thanks' to her.
This year, I guess I wont have the chance to celebrate. Have to work, have to go for class. By the time all these end, my day will end too. I know I can always go for pre or post celebration. But still the feeling wont be the same because it is just not your special day.
If I can make wishes now, my first wish will be:
Be happy everyday, every hour, every minute and every second. I guess there will be quite hard because I get agitated easily and there always things around me that irritate me.
My second wish will be: More D and HD, hopefully can succeed in all my work.
And my last will be: A secret. (Hopefully by keeping it as a secret, my wish will come true...but....)
I have tons of stuffs to bitch about, but I shall keep it to another time, another entry because I want to be a good girl on my special day!
Anyway, on a happy note...I am going to the Halloween Party! And yesh...we will all be dressing up. Hehe...I missed all those dressing up fun I used to have. I cant wait for Friday party time!!!
Will take lotsa photos man!!!!!
Happy Birthday to MyseLF!
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YiHui BLaEh BLaEH...
at |8:45 PM|
Sunday, October 12, 2008
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Have you ever dislike someone but yet you have to pretend or act as if you are alright with them? Have you ever silently wish that the person can keep their comments to themselves? Have you ever wonder why the person can comfortably make so much comments when you dont even think you are close to them?
Is that their way of bonding and breaking the gap? Maybe...But that does not apply to me. If you are not close to the person, keep your whatever stupid comments to yourselves. I dont need you to judge me or have your views about me. All those are insignificant to me and I dislike that! Simply because who are you to judge me? Are you considered my friends yet? Nope. If just because, we talk a few times and we are friends, them I am sorry. That is not in my dictionary because then I will have so many goddamn friends.
Since we are not friends, we are merely aquaintances and I believe that you should give me the adequate space by keeping your comments to yourselves. I dislike and I cant tolerate obnoxious people. I always feel that only people who are inconfident and unsure about themselves, would always by all means show off, throw plenty of comments of others to prove that they, themselves are better. They always thought that their comments are witty, but they are not and only brainless people can laugh to it.
I wish to break free from these people to make my life better and less pretentious. But they are everywhere and I constantly have to face them. Each time I have to control myself from throwing my comments back to them. Each time I have to smile, laugh and pretend that I am glad to have their comments. So tiring K! Maybe you will think that I am being bias or wonder why cant I just accept them and treat them like friends whom I always suan them and vice versa.
Sorry...I am not like that. Do I need to accept all people as friends? I dont think so bah. We are high species mammals that have brains and can think, analyse and make our own choice of selection. So if I dont see the reason of accepting such people as friends, why should I? Yupz, this is life. We all have choices and I believe that all people make choices that best suit them and make them happy. What for make yourselves suffer? Do not let people, especially those highly obnoxious, self centered people affect you. From now on, I want my life to be happy! Even though it is hard not to get annoyed or irritated by them, I will try! I will just psycho myself that they are non existing and I cant hear their lame comments or their sneering faces.
I miss people of my kind and I guess only my friends will know what I mean!! Anyway I am not going Macau liao due to the bad economic situation. If you still in the blur of what is goin on, please wake up and go read the papers. If you are in denial that the economic crisis will hit us, please wake up too because even though USA and Europe is far, our economy are dependent on them as well because we are a tertiary country. So while you continue to indulge yourselves with expensive purchases and flaunting around, beware of the situtation that you are not aware about. At such times, nothing is guarantee and you may anytime be the next to go. So we should be always be prepared at such times and try to reduce our expenses and help out more with the family expenses.
I am sorry for today post. I guess I am pmsing thus I am so full of complaints. I know I can be quite a square person but I cant ignore my principles and the teachings my mum taught me. That why I have low tolerance level for certain people whom I cant apprehend their behaviour. I know I am not the best, I know I have a huge temper, I also know I very attitude but I dont think I do things that constantly inconvenient people and to the extent of being obnoxious.
Zuo Xu Wei De Ren, Zhen De Hao Lie Ou!
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YiHui BLaEh BLaEH...
at |9:18 AM|
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
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For the 1st time in my life, I feel so empty. Why? I also cant explain it. I guess I am so complicated that even I myself dont understand. Where's all my energy? Gone... Where's all my positivity? Gone.. What happen to the masked me who wont get hit by any things? Gone...gone like my energy and positivity
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YiHui BLaEh BLaEH...
at |7:04 PM|
